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Make Your Voice Heard With This Excerpt of 'Yes No Maybe So'

The most *epic* author team-up of the decade has arrived and the 2020s have only just begun.

Who’s ready for Becky Albertalli and Aisha Saeed’s new book about the power of love and resistance? Because we definitely are. Yes No Maybe So follows Jamie and Maya as they canvas for a local election… and develop the cutest friendship-to-romance that we’ve ever seen. Throughout the book, they learn how to make their voices heard, and just how powerful that can be. Who says you can’t make a difference before you can vote?

The thing is, though: mastering local politics is one thing… a cross-cultural crush is a completely different field. We’re so ready for you to meet the adorably awkward duo that is Jamie and Maya. We’re a little obsessed!

Can’t wait for Yes No Maybe So to come out? Catch a sneak peek below!

 

CHAPTER ONE

JAMIE

 

“Oranges don’t have nipples,” says Sophie.

I park our cart by the display pyramid, pointedly ignoring her. You could say there’s a part of me that doesn’t want to discuss nipples with my twelve-year-old sister in the Target produce section. And that part of me. Is all of me.

“They’re tangelos,” Sophie adds. “Tangelos have—”

“Good for tangelos.” I tear a plastic bag off the roll. “Look. The sooner we get everything, the sooner we can leave.”

Which isn’t a diss on Target. No way. Target’s the best. It’s kind of my personal wonderland. But it’s hard to catch that anything-could-happen, big-box-general-merchandise vibe when I’m here as my cousin’s errand boy. Gabe is the assistant campaign manager for a special election in our district, and he never seems to run out of random jobs for Sophie and me. This morning he texted us a snack list for his volunteers: oranges, grapes, chocolate, pizza bagels, Nutri-Grain bars, water bottles. NO APPLES. NO PRETZELS. All caps, in true Gabe fashion. Apparently, crunchy foods and political phone banking don’t mix.

“Still think they look nipply,” Sophie mutters as I reach for a few tangelos near the top of the pyramid. I like the ones that are so bright, they look photoshopped, as if someone cranked up the color saturation. I grab a few more, because Gabe’s expecting at least ten volunteers tonight.

“Why does he even want oranges?” Sophie asks. “Like, why pick the messiest fruit?”

“Scurvy prevention,” I start to say—but two girls step through the automatic doors, and I lose my train of thought completely.

Listen, I’m not the guy who can’t function when a cute girl walks by. I’m really not. For one thing, that would imply I was a functional person to begin with. Also, the issue isn’t that they’re cute.

I mean. They are cute. Around my age, dressed for Georgia summer air-conditioning in zipped-up hoodies and jeans. The shorter one—white, with square-framed glasses and brown spiral curls—gestures emphatically with both hands as they approach the carts. But it’s her friend who keeps catching my eye. She’s South Asian, I think, with wide brown eyes and wavy dark hair. She nods and grins at something her friend says.

There’s just something so familiar about her. I swear, we’ve met before.

She looks up, suddenly, like she senses me staring. And my brain stalls out.

Yup. Yup. Okay. She’s definitely looking at me.

My friend Drew would know what to do here. Eye contact with a cute girl. A girl I’m pretty sure I know from somewhere, which means there’s a built-in conversation topic. And we’re in Target, the definition of my comfort zone. If there’s even such a thing as a comfort zone when cute girls are involved.

Dude, just talk to her. I swear to God, it’s not that deep. I wonder how many times Drew’s said that to me. Eye contact. Chin up. Smile. Walk over.

“Okay, Mr. Heart Eyes.” Sophie nudges me. “I can’t tell which girl you’re looking at.”

I turn quickly back to the tangelo display, cheeks burning as I grab one from the bottom of the pyramid.

And everything comes crashing down.

First the pyramid trembles—followed by the thwack thwack thwack of oranges raining to the floor. I turn to Sophie, who claps both hands over her mouth and stares back at me. Everyone’s staring at me. A mom pushing her baby in a cart. The guy manning the bakery. A kid, pausing mid-tantrum near the packaged cookie display.

Of course, the two girls are front and center. They stand frozen by their cart, with matching uh-oh expressions.

Thwack thwack thwack. And again. Without pause. And.

Thwack.

The last tangelo falls. “I’m—”

“A cartoon character,” Sophie finishes.

“Okay. Yeah. I can fix this.” I squat down right where I’m standing, and start passing tangelos up to Sophie. “You take these.”

I tuck a few more into the crook of my arm and attempt to stand, but I drop a bunch of them before I’m even upright. “Crap.” I bend to grab them, which sends a few more tumbling down, rolling toward the apple display—which you’d think wouldn’t happen with tangelos. Shouldn’t the nipples keep them from rolling? I scoot on my knees toward the apple display, hoping nothing slid too far under, when someone clears his throat loudly.

“Okeydokey, my dude, let’s keep you away from the apples.”

I look up to find a clean-cut guy in a red polo shirt and a Target name tag. Kevin.

I scramble up, immediately squishing a tangelo beneath my sneaker. “Sorry! I’m sorry.”

“Hey,” Sophie says. “Jamie, look at me.” She’s holding her phone up.

“Are you filming me?”

“Just a little Boomerang,” she says. She turns to Kevin, the employee. “Meet my brother, Butterfingers von Klutzowitz.”

“I’ll help you clean this,” I say quickly.

“Nah, you’re totally fine. I got this,” says Kevin.

Sophie peers down at her phone. “How do you send stuff to BuzzFeed?”

Out of the corner of my eye, a flicker of movement: the girls in hoodies veering quickly down a side aisle.

Getting the hell away from me, I guess. I don’t blame them one bit.

 

Twenty  minutes  later,  Sophie  and  I  park  at  the  Jordan Rossum state senate campaign satellite headquarters—technically the side annex of Fawkes and Horntail, a new-age bookstore on Roswell Road. Not exactly the Georgia State Capitol building, or even the Coverdell Building across the street, where Mom works for State Senator Jim Mathews from the Thirty-Third District. The whole state capitol complex  looks  plucked  from  DC,  with  its  columns  and balconies and giant arched windows. They’ve got security teams at the entrances, like an airport, and once you’re in, it’s all heavy wooden doors and people in suits and fidgety groups of kids on field trips.

And those bright, gleaming Coverdell Building bathrooms.

I know all about those bathrooms.

No suits or security teams at Fawkes and Horntail. I cut straight to the side-access door, hoisting two dozen bottles of water, while Sophie trails behind me balancing the snack bags. We’re here so much, we don’t even bother knocking.

“Hey, bagels,” greets Hannah, the assistant field coordinator. She means us, not the snacks. There’s a bagel chain in Atlanta called Goldberg’s, and since we’re Jamie and Sophie Goldberg, people sometimes . . . yeah. But Hannah’s cool, so I don’t mind it. She’s a rising junior at Spelman, but she’s staying with her mom in the suburbs this summer, just to be near the campaign office.

She looks up from her desk, which is stacked high with canvassing flyers—the ones Gabe calls walk pieces. “Is this for the phone bankers tonight? Y’all are the best snack team ever.”

“It was mostly me,” Sophie says, handing her the snack bags. “I’m like the snack team captain.”

Hannah, halfway across the room with the snacks, looks back over her shoulder and laughs.

“Except I drove,” I mutter. “I pushed the cart, carried all the water—”

“But it was my idea.” Sophie jabs me with her elbow and smiles brightly.

“Mom literally made us.”

“Okay, well I’m the one who didn’t knock over a display, so.”

Hannah walks back over and settles into her desk. “Hey, y’all are coming tomorrow night, right?”

“Oh, believe me,” Sophie says. “We’ll be there.”

Mom never lets us miss Rossum campaign events these days. Lucky us. They’re all the same: people milling around with plastic cups, making overly familiar eye contact. Me forgetting everyone’s names the moment I hear them. And then everyone gets super extra when Rossum arrives. People laugh louder, angle toward him, sidle nearer to ask for selfies. Rossum always seems a little startled by the whole thing. Not in a bad way. More like in a who me kind of way. It’s his first time running for office, so I guess he’s not used to all that attention.

But the thing about Rossum is that he’s amazing with people. I mean, his platform’s great too—he’s super progressive, and he’s always talking about raising the minimum wage. But a lot of it’s just the way he speaks. He can give you goose bumps, or make you laugh, or make you feel purposeful and clear. I always think about the people who shake the world with their words. Patrick Henry, Sojourner Truth, John F. Kennedy, Martin Luther King. I know Rossum’s just a guy running for state senate. But he makes it all feel huge. He makes this race feel like a moment, a brand-new dot on Georgia’s timeline. He makes you feel like you’re watching history change.

I can’t imagine being able to do that.

Tomorrow’s event is an interfaith outreach dinner at a local mosque, which means Mom’s extra excited. We aren’t the most observant Jews in the world, but she lives for this kind of religious community-building stuff.

“Should be fun,” says Hannah, opening her laptop. But then she stops short, glancing back up at us. “Oh, right, you need snack reimbursement, don’t you? Gabe’s in the VIP room. I’ll grab him.”

The VIP room? A supply closet.

Hannah emerges moments later, followed by Gabe, who’s wearing a crisp blue button-down shirt, with a picture of Jordan Rossum’s face stickered onto his chest. People sometimes say Sophie and I look like Gabe, since he’s tall and has brown hair and hazel-green eyes. But he’s got bigger lips and archier eyebrows and a weird sprouting pseudo-beard he’s always working on. And he’s twenty-three, which is a solid six years older than me. So I don’t really see it.

Gabe clasps his hands and grins. “I was wondering when I’d see your faces around here.”

“We were here on Monday,” Sophie says.

“And Sunday,” I add.

He’s unfazed. “You’ve been missing out on some sweet canvassing action. You should sign up for a slot. Or maybe you could swing by for phone banking tonight? It’s gonna be lit.” He pitches his voice high when he says it, tilting his palms up like he’s about to raise the roof. I sneak a glance at Sophie, who seems caught between laughing and choking.

“So are you in?” Gabe asks. “Rossum needs you.”

This time, I glance down at my feet. I want to help Gabe, but I’m not a phone-banking kind of person. Envelope stuffing? Absolutely. Postcards? Even better. I’ve even sent out what Gabe calls “peer to peer” text messages, though anyone old enough to vote is, by definition, not my peer.

Of course, the thing that throws me the most is canvassing. I’m not exactly great at talking to strangers. And I don’t just mean cute girl strangers. It’s everyone. I get really in my head about it. And thoughts never seem to travel smoothly between my brain and my mouth. I’m not like Sophie, who can walk into any room, befriend anyone, join any conversation. It’s not even something she tries to do. Sophie’s just fundamentally not self-conscious. Like, she farted on the school bus once in fifth grade, and was downright giddy about it afterward. Being embarrassed didn’t even occur to her. If it were me, I’d have shriveled up on the spot.

Maybe some people are just destined to always say the wrong thing. Or no thing, because half the time, I just stammer and blush and can barely form words. But hey, better that than the alternative . . . which, as I now know, involves phlegm, a touch of vomit, and State Senator Mathews’s black oxford shoes.

Let’s just say I’m not the master of persuasion you want on the front lines of your political campaign. I’m not a history changer.

“I don’t know.” I shake my head. “I’m just—”

“It’s super easy,” Gabe says, clapping me on the shoulder. “Just follow the script. Why don’t I put you down for phone banking tonight, and we’ll find you a canvassing slot while you’re here.”

“Um—”

“We have Hebrew school,” Sophie says.

“Oh, sweet. Big J, I didn’t know you were still taking Hebrew.”

“I’m not—”

Sophie cuts her eyes toward me, lips pursed—the patented Sophie Goldberg STFU Jamie Face. “Jamie is taking Hebrew,” she says loudly. “Because he needs a refresher so he can quiz me on my haftorah portion.”

I nod really fast. “Haftorah. Yup.”

“Dang,” Gabe says. “That’s a good brother.”

“He is. And I’m a good sister,” Sophie says, smacking my arm. “An extremely good sister. Too good.”

I glance at her sideways. “You have your moments,” I say.

*             *             *

Karma, though. Wow. Sophie may have been lying about Hebrew  school  tonight,  but  from  the  moment  we  step through the kitchen door, it’s clear: we’re in bat mitzvah planning hell. My mom and grandma are huddled at the kitchen table in front of Mom’s laptop—I mean, that’s not the weird part. Grandma’s always here. She moved in with us when I was nine, right after my grandpa died. And the huddled-over-a-laptop part’s not weird either, since Mom and Grandma are both big-time tech geeks. Mom runs campaign analytics sometimes for Senator Mathews, and obviously Grandma is our resident social media queen.

But the fact that Mom’s working from home in a bathrobe at four in the afternoon is concerning, as is the way Boomer,  Grandma’s  mastiff,  is  pacing  nervously  around the table. Not to mention the fact that the table itself looks like a paper apocalypse, strewn with centerpiece mock-ups, printed spreadsheets, washi tape, binders, and tiny envelopes. I’d say there’s a zero percent chance I’m making it out of the kitchen tonight without a stack of place cards to fold.

Sophie dives in. “New RSVPs!”

“Soph, let Grandma pull up the spreadsheet first,” Mom says, reaching for a large binder. “Also, I need you to look at this floor plan so we can think about the flow. We’ll mostly be in the ballroom, with the dance floor there, tables here, and we have two options for the buffet. One, we can stick it on the side, near the—”

“Tessa Andrews accepts with pleasure.” Sophie slams a card down happily. “Oh. Hell. Yes.”

“Sophie, don’t cuss,” says Mom.

Sophie tilts her head. “I don’t really think of hell as a cuss word, though.”

“It’s  a  gateway  cuss,”  I  say,  settling  in  beside  Mom. Boomer parks his chin in my lap, leaning in for a head scratch.

“Here, I’ve got the spreadsheet pulled up,” says Grandma. “Sophie, are you listening?” says Mom. “Now, the other option for the buffet is this bonus room at the back of the venue. But is it weird having the food that close to the restrooms?”

I shrug. “At least it’s convenient.”

“Jamie! Don’t be gross,” Sophie says. “Oh my God, for handwashing!”

Mom rubs her temples. “I’d like us to utilize the space, since we’ll be paying for it anyway, but—”

“Hey.” Sophie perks up. “What about a teen room?” Mom narrows her eyes, but Sophie raises a finger. “Hear me out. It’s a thing. You’ve got the adults, all of your friends, family—you all get the nice party in the ballroom, right? And then we get our own super chill smaller party in the other room. Nothing fancy.”

“That’s ridiculous,” says Mom. “Why wouldn’t you want to be with family?”

“I’m just concerned about some of the music being a bit much for the old people, you know? This way, y’all can play ‘Shout’ or whatever in here.” She pokes the middle of the ballroom on the floor plan. “And then we can have Travis Scott . . . and everyone’s happy.”

“Travis  Scott. Now, isn’t that Stormi’s dad?” says Grandma.

“We’re not having two separate parties,” says Mom.

“Then why’d you ask my opinion?” says Sophie. “Why am I even here?”

“Why am I even here?” I mutter to Boomer, who gazes back at me solemnly.

I mean, let’s be real. Mom didn’t even want my input when it was my own bar mitzvah. I didn’t even get to pick my own theme. I wanted historical timelines. Mom made me  do  Around  the  World,  with  chocolate  passports  for favors.

I guess it ended up being sort of cool—in an ironic way, since I’ve only been to one other country. My dad’s been living for years as an expat in Utrecht, so Sophie and I spend a few weeks in the Netherlands each summer. Other than that, we don’t talk to him much. It’s hard to explain, but when he’s physically present, he’s present—he takes off work when we visit and everything. But he’s not really a phone guy or a text guy, and he’s barely an email guy. And he’s only been back to the States a handful of times since the divorce. I doubt he’ll come to Sophie’s bat mitzvah, especially with it scheduled so close to our summer trip. He skipped mine, though he did mail me a congratulatory box of authentic Dutch stroopwafels. I didn’t have the heart to tell him they sell the exact same brand at Kroger.

“—Jamie’s toast,” my mom says.

I jolt upright, startling Boomer. “My what?”

“You’re giving the pre-challah toast at the reception.

And the hamotzi, of course.”

“No I’m not.” My stomach drops.

“Come on, it will be good for you.” Mom ruffles my hair. “Great speaking practice, and pretty stress-free, right? It’s just family and Sophie’s friends.”

“You want me to give a speech in front of a room full of middle schoolers.”

“Is  that  really  so  intimidating?”  asks  Mom.  “You’re going to be a senior. They’re not even freshmen.”

“Um.” I shake my head. “That sounds like hell.”

“Jamie, don’t gateway cuss,” says Sophie.

Grandma smiles gently. “Why don’t you think about it, bubalah? It’s not all middle schoolers. Drew will be there, Felipe and his fellow will be there, your cousins will be there.”

“No.” Mom rests her hand on my shoulder. “We’re not doing the negotiation thing. Jamie can step out of his comfort zone for Sophie. She’s his sister!”

“Yeah, I’m your sister,” chimes Sophie.

“This isn’t a normal brother thing! Where are you even getting this? If anything, you should be giving the toast.”

“Andrea Jacobs’s sister gave a toast,” Sophie says. “And Michael  Gerson’s  brother,  and  Elsie  Feinstein’s  brother, though I guess he just said mazel tov and then belched into the microphone. Don’t do that. Hey, maybe you could do your toast in verse?”

I stand abruptly. “I’m leaving.”

“Jamie, don’t be dramatic,” says Mom. “This is a good opportunity for you.”

I don’t respond. I don’t even look back.

I can’t. I’m sorry. No offense to Sophie. Trust me, I’d love to be the awesome brother who can get up there and be just the right balance of sentimental and funny. I want to charm all her friends and say all the right things. Sophie probably deserves a brother like that. But the thought of standing in front of a packed ballroom, trying to form words and not choke or have a coughing fit or burn the whole banquet hall down . . . It’s impossible. It’s a job for some other Jamie, and unfortunately, I’m just me.

 

CHAPTER TWO

MAYA

 

Sara is on a mission. And since I’m her best friend, I am all in. But forty-five minutes into our treasure hunt we’ve come up empty. The object of our conquest? A trash can. And no, I do not mean this metaphorically. We are literally on a hunt for a receptacle for garbage.

“It’s got to be here somewhere . . . ,” Sara mutters. “They had three in stock when Jenna called to check this morning.”

I stifle a yawn as people dart past us, pushing red shopping carts.

“I thought you were going with the other stuff you texted me last week,” I tell her.

“Yeah, but then Jenna found a great theme here that goes with our dorm layout. This is the only thing we’re missing.”

“I still don’t get it.” I glance at her. “I mean, it’s a trash can.”

“Correction, it’s the perfect trash can, Maya.” Sara’s eyes sparkle. “It’s got a vintage feel. You’ll see!”

I smile and nod, but the truth is, even if we’ve combed over the storage section three times, I’m just happy I get to be here with her. Between her babysitting gigs, swim coaching at the Y, and working at Skeeter’s custard shop, she’s as busy this summer as she was all senior year. I haven’t even had a chance to tell her everything that’s been happening at home. Just thinking about it now makes my stomach knot up. Because right at this moment, my dad is packing his things into cardboard boxes.

I rummage in my purse for my phone; my fingers slide over my passport. It arrived yesterday. Pulling it out, a fresh burst of sadness washes over me. We were supposed to leave for Italy after Ramadan ended, two days after Eid. But right after I turned in my passport application, the trip was canceled and, along with it, it turned out, so was my parents’ marriage. I glance at my picture. I think there’s some kind of rule that photos in stamp-sized squares must come out terribly. As evidence, I would present: my driver’s license, my YMCA card, and now my new passport, where I look like a very stern woodpecker. But how I look in this photo feels  like  a  silly  thing  to  even  think  about,  considering everything that’s happened.

“It’s not that bad,” Sara says, looking over my shoulder. “But not that great.”

“It’s a passport photo.” She pokes me. “It’ll get you where you need to go.”

I bite my lip. Sara was the first person I wanted to tell about my parents, but she’s been so busy. I haven’t been able to find the right time. But . . .

“So.” I look at her. “I’d been meaning to tell you. Italy got canceled. I think—”

“Are you serious?” Sara whirls around to face me. “You won’t believe this. I just got a text this morning from a family who needs a part-time summer babysitter! I felt so bad, because I’m too busy, but I could connect you guys? Jessie’s mom is super tapped into the network, so this could be your in.”

I blink at the unexpected pivot. It’s true. I’d been hoping to break into the ridiculously intricate local babysitting network since forever, but she didn’t even pause to ask why Italy was canceled. I should rewind and tell her, but she’s so amped up right now. And I haven’t seen her in so long. . . . “If it’s in the mornings, I can,” I finally say. My mom works from home until noon most days, so I can borrow her car.

“Jessie is the sweetest toddler you’ll ever meet.” Sara jots off a text and puts her phone away. “I don’t even know what I’d do here without you,” she tells me. “Finding this trash can is like playing a game of Where’s Waldo. It could be shelved in so many categories. Kitchen. Bath. Storage . . .”

“I’m kind of shocked you’re not working,” I say.

“I know,” she says. “They shut down the pool because of a plumbing issue, so all my classes have to be rescheduled. I can’t believe I have a whole day to myself.”

“Maybe we can grab dinner after I open fast?” I suggest. That way we can sit down and finally have a real conversation. Just the thought of talking to Sara about my parents makes me feel a tiny bit better. I don’t think there’s anything she can possibly say to make me laugh and move on from it, like she normally does when I vent to her. But if anyone can find the humor in my family imploding, it’s Sara.

“Mellow  Mushroom  for  old  times’  sake?  We  haven’t done that in forever.”

“Three weeks and two days,” I tell her. “Not that I’m counting or anything.”

“Sorry.” She glances at me sheepishly.

“No big deal. We still have the rest of the summer.”

Come fall, she’s going to the University of Georgia. I try not to think too much about the fact that Athens is a solid two hours in traffic. And this is Atlanta, so there’s always traffic.

“Oh yeah, about that.” She bites her lip. “I’m not sure about August anymore.”

“What do you mean?”

“Jenna  is  taking  summer  session  two,  and  her  girlfriend—Ashley—is a manager at Avid Bookshop. I just did a Skype interview with them this morning.”

“You’re leaving sooner than August?” I stare at her. “Maybe. I don’t even know if they’ll hire me. Ashley said

they got a ton of applications. But if I get the job, you’ve basically hit the lottery, Maya.” She winks. “I bet they have a sweet employee discount on books. You know I’ll hook you up.”

This isn’t a big deal. She was leaving anyway. But she was so busy all senior year—I hoped this summer, we’d finally find pockets of time to catch up. The disappointment stings. This is the downside to being best friends with someone a school year ahead of you.

“Oh my God.” Sara glances down at her phone. “Jenna found another guy she’s positive is ‘the one’ for me.” She holds it out to show me. A boy with a shaggy surfer cut grins back.

“He’s cute,” I say.

“I haven’t even moved yet, and she’s already on the lookout.” She groans.

“It’s about time you got back out there. I think it’ll be fun.”

Sara hasn’t dated anyone since she broke up with her long-term boyfriend, Amari, last year.

“Fun, huh? Okay. I’ll tell her to keep an eye out for you too, then!”

“Sara.” I bump her with my shoulder.

“Think about it.” She grins. “We could even do double dates!”

“Right—that’s definitely happening.” I roll my eyes.

Here’s the thing. Muslims fall all over the spectrum on dating and relationships—kind of what happens when there’s over a billion of us—but my parents? They’re not cool about me dating in high school. They’re not as strict as Lyla’s parents, who said she can’t hang out with boys, period, but my parents have always said relationships are sacred. They don’t think it’s a good idea to date just to date, without the potential for a long-term future together. It’s not something I really talk about, since it’s kind of weird to announce that sort of thing when you’re seventeen years old. Sara’s the only one who knows, and she thinks that it’s bonkers I go along with it—but I actually see where they’re coming from on this. Relationships are complicated, and right now there’s too much stuff changing in my life for me to think about adding anything like that to the mix. So the truth is, unless Mr. Darcy from Pride and Prejudice shows up at my door with flowers announcing his eternal devotion, count me out.

“There it is!” Sara shrieks just then. We’re in the “back to school” section. Shelves of cute lamps and alarm clocks frame the space. Five different twin beds are stacked next to each other, outfitted with different patterned sheets, blankets, and throw pillows.

Sara rushes over, scoops up a metal trash can, and gently places it into our shopping cart, like it’s a fragile work of art. She snaps a photo and texts it. “I don’t know why I didn’t check here first. It’s the last one too!”

“Awesome.” I smile, trying my best to look supportive. But just how excited am I supposed to be about a trash can? “Jenna texted me to check out the curtains.” She pushes the  shopping  cart  along  with  one  hand  while  glancing

down at her phone. I hurry to keep up. “Still going with sky blue and cream?”

“Yep.” She nods. “Let me know if you see anything cute.”

I walk along with her as she browses the curtains and then the rugs. She texts Jenna photos along the way. It’s like we’re hanging out with Jenna too. Which is fine. Really.

We’re about to turn into the next aisle when I pause. “Love muffin straight ahead,” I say.

Sara looks up with a start. Her eyes widen.

It’s Kevin Mullen from school. He’s walking down the main aisle toward us, sipping an iced coffee. In school, he wears loafers, jeans, and preppy button-down shirts, always untucked. But right now, he’s in full Target uniform, with practical sneakers, khaki pants, and a bright red T-shirt. I’ve known Kevin since seventh grade and it’s probably statistically impossible not to like him, since he’s the chillest and nicest guy around. Even when he was fourteen, sporting the most extreme bowl cut known to man—everyone let it fly without a snicker. We’d gotten to know each other better this past semester when we got assigned to do a presentation on the First Amendment. He’d even come along with Sara and me to Menchie’s for frozen yogurt twice. I’m not saying we were friends exactly, but we were on our way. Of course everything fell apart when he brought Sara a basket of her favorite chocolate muffins two months ago and confessed his long-standing crush on her. When Sara told him she didn’t feel the same way, he handled it in trademark Kevin style—said it was a bummer, but he understood—but it hasn’t been the same. And Sara’s been avoiding him anytime she sees him coming. We slipped by him pretty handily when he was cleaning up an orange spill, but it’s too late to duck now. He’s spotted us.

“Hey, guys.” He walks over. Sara quickly glances down at her phone.

“I didn’t know you worked here,” I say.

“Assistant manager.” He taps his badge. “And let me tell you, it has been a day.”

“Yeah. What’s the deal?” I say as a woman grazes me with her cart. “It’s like the migration of the wildebeests.”

“It’s the Summer Trifecta,” Kevin says. “Fourth of July sales plus swim clearance and then an early-bird back-to-school special. It’ll be a zoo until August.” He looks at Sara and blushes a little. “So, you’re leaving soon, right? UGA?”

“Yes.” Sara smiles politely.

“I hope they recruit me next year,” he says. “Their basketball game is pretty strong.”

“It is.” Sara brightens, the awkwardness magically vanishing. “You should definitely take a tour and see if you like it.”

“Nah, as long as their scholarship game is strong, I’m there.”

Sara launches into a speech about the glory that is the University of Georgia and the wonder that is Athens. I suppress a laugh. I mean, don’t get me wrong, UGA has a great veterinary medicine program, so I’m all in if I get accepted there one day—but Sara’s love for that school is next level. I’m glazing over when I get a text message.

Mom: Where are you?

Maya: At Target helping Sara with some errands. Mom: When will you be done?

Maya: We’re almost wrapping up.

Mom: Pick up some red and blue plates and napkins for the iftar while you’re there so we have extra. And come home soon. We need to have a family meeting.

I shove the phone back in my purse. I don’t want to have another meeting about this. I want to pretend it isn’t happening at all.

We say goodbye to Kevin, and I grab the plates and napkins my mother requested.

“That wasn’t so bad,” Sara says, glancing back at Kevin’s retreating figure.

“Good,” I say, slightly relieved. “Also, please tell me you’re free tomorrow. I could use some company at the campaign iftar. The food’s going to be really good.”

“Babysitting,” she says. “Sorry.”

I’m about to suggest we head to Perimeter Mall before dinner this evening, when her phone buzzes. Glancing down at it, her expression falls.

“Jenna change her mind on the color scheme?” I ask her.

“It’s Lucas.” She winces. “He fractured his wrist. He needs me to cover his shift at Skeeter’s tonight.”

“What?” My voice goes two octaves too high. “Can’t they find someone else?”

“It’s my turn to cover. I’m so sorry, Maya, I really wanted to catch up.” She glances at her phone. “I think I’m off Friday evening. I can check with Hen’s mom to see if she needs me to sit or not and let you know?”

I shrug. I’m not going to be a big baby about the fact that my best friend has to try and pencil me in like a dentist appointment. It’s not like she’s leaving soon and I won’t see her again except for holidays. Yeah.

I do not want to talk about this.

If you asked me to choose between sitting on this ottoman across from my parents or sticking my hand in a bee’s nest, I’m not saying I’d go for the bee’s nest, but I would definitely need to think about it.

My parents are pretty cool people, and normally I like hanging out with them. And sitting across from each other in the family room isn’t unusual, especially during Ramadan, when we’re trying to kill the last few hours before it’s time to open fast by playing a game of Spot It! or Uno or Pandemic (my dad is a major nerd).

But there are no board games out right now. We aren’t hanging out.

This is a family meeting to sort out the details about how we are not going to be a family anymore. I’m still reeling from the announcement. When they told me Dad was moving out. That it was for the best. That they wished it didn’t have to be this way. They normally ask for my feedback on the type of flowers to plant around the mailbox in the spring, or what color to paint the dining room—but breaking up our family unit as we know it was something they didn’t bother to run by me.

It shouldn’t have come as a complete shock. I’d heard the arguments since the middle of junior year. I saw the unmade guest bed the last few months. I just thought they’d get over it, whatever it was. We’re a family. Families fight. Families make up and move on. It didn’t hit me until now that moving on could mean something else entirely.

“Maya?”

They watch me expectantly.

“The movers are coming tomorrow,” my mother says. “In the afternoon.”

“The leasing office is still trying to find the spare key,” my father says. “I’ll get it to you as soon as I have it.”

“Do you have any questions for us?” my mother says. “About?” I glance at them.

“This . . .” My mother gestures to the half-packed moving boxes around us. “Anything on your mind?”

“It’s a little too late for that, isn’t it?”

“We just want to make sure you’re okay,” my father says. “Whatever you want to say, we’re here.”

“Did you figure out the time frame yet?” I clear my throat. “For the trial separation?”

Trial separation. The words themselves sound heavy—I think of courtrooms and unsmiling judges with wooden gavels.

“We still don’t know. We’re going to have to take it as it comes,” my mother says.

“But what does that mean?”

“The apartment lease is month to month,” my father says. “I still don’t get why you had to do this now. During Ramadan.”

“I know. But Ramadan felt like the right time,” my mother says. “We’re supposed to be reflecting on ourselves anyhow. Hopefully time apart can help us recharge and focus on what to do next.”

“So, end of Ramadan then.” Twelve days to go. That isn’t so bad.

“We’re not sure,” my father says gently. “Maybe that’s all the time we’ll need, but it might be longer.”

My cat, Willow, walks past me just then—she rubs her body against my leg before heading toward the kitchen. My phone buzzes.

Sara: Whoops sorry, Jessie’s grandma is going to cover their sitting needs. I’ll keep you in the loop if anyone else reaches out.

“Could you put the phone down?” my mother asks. “We know this is a big change.”

“Thanks for the alert.”

“Maya.” My mother sighs.

“Do you have any ideas on how to fill up your extra time this summer?” my father says. “I found a couple of day camps with open spots. There’s a really interesting robotics one at Mercer. And a dance camp by your mom’s work still has two openings.”

Dance camp? Robotics? I stare at him.

“I called the humane society,” I say. “They’re good on volunteers for now but said to check back next month. Sara might be able to get me a sitting gig in the mornings.” I look at my mother. “That way you’ll have the car back in time for work.”

“I was going to talk to you about that,” my mother says. “My work schedule is shifting the next few weeks. Chris assigned me a really messy case that’s going to trial. I’m going to have to go into the office each day until it settles down.”

“Are you fucking kidding me?” I blurt out. “Maya, language,” my mother says.

“Crap. I mean . . . sorry.” I wince. Ramadan isn’t just about not eating from before sunup to sundown. We’re supposed to be patient—the best versions of ourselves we can be. But this is . . . flocking unbelievable.

“How am I even getting to Dad’s apartment, then?”

“Door to door, it’s only four minutes away, and—”

“Four minutes by driving,” I correct him.

“I’ll set you up with a rideshare app,” he says. “Honestly, it’s so close by, it’s barely moving out.”

No such thing as barely moving out, I want to say. Moving out is moving out. And what about Willow? She freaks if we move a houseplant to the other end of the room. Am I going to cart her back and forth to two different houses in random people’s cars? But I can’t get the words out, because tears threaten to spring to my eyes.

They look at me from where they sit on the ironically named love seat. What do they want? Absolution? Tears? All I want is to run as far as I can out of here and never look back.

Because the truth is, it’s not just Willow who doesn’t like change. I literally got twitchy when my favorite yogurt company rebranded to a bigger font. When my hairdresser accidentally cut off three inches more than usual, I wore it in a bun until it grew back out. Let’s just say I’m not exactly the most adaptable person in the world.

But I don’t mention that. I don’t even move. I just stare at the coffee table and try my best not to cry, because I’m legitimately terrified that if I start, I might never stop.

Because this?

This fucking sucks.

 

CHAPTER THREE

JAMIE

 

“Knock knock,” Grandma says, instead of just knocking, which I used to think was a funny Grandma quirk. Now I know it’s because she always has her hands full of food or dog or both.

I sit up in bed, yawning. “Morning.”

But she doesn’t come in—she just cracks the door. “Now, take your time, lovey, but just so you know, there’s breakfast in the kitchen.”

“Um. Thanks.” I rub my eyes. “Are you—”

The door clicks shut, and she’s gone. I yawn again, tugging my phone out of the charger. Per usual, I’ve missed a mile of texts on last night’s group chat. I peek at the most recent one, from Felipe. Nine o’clock tomorrow it is. 😭 I cannot emphasize enough how much you owe me for this.  I scroll back to find a whole series of negotiations—namely, Drew explaining the absolute exquisite hotness of a long-distance runner named Beth and making a hard pitch for early morning wingman backup at our school’s track.

I glance at the time—8:15. Normally I’m kind of weird about  texting  back  this  early.  Not  because  I’m  worried about  waking  anyone—Drew  and  Felipe  sleep  through texts,  thunderstorms,  sirens,  pretty  much  anything.  But there’s something fundamentally uncool about being the first texter in the group chat. Which I am. Every single morning. I’m like that guy who shows up to keg parties at the exact time listed on the evite. Or I would be, if I got invited to keg parties.

But there’s no point trying to convince Drew and Felipe I’m suddenly a rage-all-night-sleep-till-noon kind of party animal. I text back a thumbs-up. And then I run through the full repertoire: shower, teeth, mouthwash, deodorant, fresh clothes, everything. I don’t know if I’m a good wingman, but I’m a hygienic wingman.

By the time I reach the kitchen, Mom and Grandma are camped out in their usual chairs, nursing coffee. Boomer jumps up from his spot near Grandma’s feet as soon as he sees me.

“Good  morning,  sunshine!”  Grandma  hits  me  with the  shoulder-squeeze,  cheek-kiss  combo.  “Look  at  you, all dressed. Let me get your breakfast out of the warming drawer. Where are you off to?”

“I’m supposed to help Drew flirt with some runner girl.”

“Isn’t he dating that girl from Steak ’n Shake?” Mom looks up from her news app.

“They were just hooking up. It wasn’t really . . .” I trail off, watching Grandma bustle over to the oven, Boomer zipping along beside her. I narrow my eyes. “Okay, why am I getting a special home-cooked breakfast? What happened?”

“Well.”  Grandma  turns  around,  smiling  warmly.  She’s holding a plate stacked high with challah toast. “You were so upset yesterday about having to give the pre-challah toast, I thought . . .” She peers down at the plate, eyes glinting behind her red-framed glasses. I follow her gaze, and then groan. “It’s challah toast!” she says. “Get it?”

“Oh, I get it.”

“Too soon?”

“Way too soon.” I take a giant bite—it’s slightly crispy, with no raisins, and it’s perfectly buttered. “Okay, food toast is good,” I admit. “Speech toast is not good.”

“You’ll be great, bubalah. I have no doubt.”

“I have doubt. Doubts. Plural. Lots of doubts.”

“Jamie, you have to stop doing that.” Mom looks up again. “It’s a self-fulfilling prophecy. You’re so convinced you’re going to screw up, you end up sabotaging yourself with that negative self-talk.”

“It’s not negative self-talk if it’s true.”

“It’s not—”

“Mom. I’m a catastrophically terrible speaker. That is an objective fact.”

Grandma pats my shoulder.

Mom frowns. “Sweetie, is this about the interview? You have to let that go. I know it sucked. No one’s pretending it didn’t. But you’re still getting to work in politics. It’s just a different side of the experience.”

“You’re missing the point.”

I think she thinks I’m bitter. Or that I resent having to make spreadsheets and run errands for my cousin all summer, rather than marching up and down marble staircases in the state capitol. But it’s not the lack of marble staircases that depresses me. And I don’t mind the errands. I mean, that’s what I’d have been doing for Senator Mathews anyway.

It’s more the I-suck factor. The I-couldn’t-even-make-nepotism-work-for-me factor. The a-sitting-state-senator-created-an-internship-just-for-me-and-I-totally-choked factor.

I mean, I literally choked. I don’t know how to explain this without being gross, but a lump of phlegm lodged in my throat, and I panicked, which made me start gagging, and then that turned to puking, and I spent about an hour in the bathroom, and needless to say, I did not get the job.

Which  doesn’t  exactly  bode  well  for  my  half-baked dream of running for office one day. Let’s face it. Some people are meant to change history. And some people are meant to change out of their vomity interview clothes.

“You  just  have  to  keep  practicing,”  Mom  continues. “Speaking  to  strangers  is  a  skill.  It’s  like  a  muscle,  you know? You keep exercising it, and you’ll see. One day it’s going to be second nature. It’ll feel just like talking to Drew and Felipe.”

I scratch Boomer’s ears. “Right.”

“You can even work on it tonight at the Rossum event. What if you made it your goal to chat with five people? Just casual everyday stuff, quick and painless. Or even just one good conversation. It would be such a great step for you.”

“Does Siri count as people?”

“No, Siri doesn’t count.” She smiles wryly. “You have a clean button-down shirt, right?”

“I was gonna wear a dirty one. With no buttons.”

“Very funny.”

What’s actually funny is that Mom thinks I don’t know by now what to wear to these things. I’ve been to more than two dozen Rossum events. Which she should know— she’s the one who forces me to go to every single one of them, even when she can’t make it.

Grandma ruffles my hair. “It won’t be so bad. I’ll pop in for the first bit. We’ll hang out. We’ll mingle.”

I hate that word. Mingle. I mean, the word itself is fine; I just hate the concept. When has anyone in the history of earth ever made a meaningful connection while mingling? It’s like, hey, let’s have only the worst parts of a conversation—the approach,  the  small  talk,  the  trying-to-figure-out-when-and-how-to-disengage part.  It’s not that I dislike being around people. I just wish we could skip to the sitting-in-comfortable-silence part, or the inside-jokes part, or even the we-both-love-The-Office-so-let’s-overanalyze-it part.

“You should invite Felipe and Drew,” Grandma suggests. “Highly doubt they’d come to a campaign event.”

“Never hurts to ask,” Grandma says. “Which reminds me . . .” She stands and crosses over to the counter, and Boomer leaps up, ready to follow her to the end of the earth. But all she does is pluck her phone out of her purse, setting it before me on the table. “What do you know about adding links to Instagram Stories?”

“I’ve never done it,” I say, taking her phone. “I’m sure I can figure it out.”

“Can you? Thank you so much, lovey. I swear, being verified is a whole new world.”

I tap into the app, biting back a smile. Grandma’s blue check mark arrived two weeks ago, and she humblebrags about it at every opportunity. It’s the only time I’ve ever seen Sophie visibly impressed by a family accomplishment. I mean, the last thing any of us expected was for Grandma’s Instagram to go viral. She started it after Grandpa died, mostly to take pictures of her and Boomer visiting Grandpa’s favorite local spots. But then Creative Loafing did a feature on her, which led to a few YouTuber shout-outs. I wouldn’t say she’s famous or anything, but lots of local people know about her, at least in Brookhaven and the northern suburbs. Of course, Gabe just has to milk every bit of Grandma’s notoriety to get attention for the campaign. I don’t think Grandma minds  too  much—she’s  a  big-time  Democrat—but  still. When Gabe named our seventy-five-year-old grandma as an official campaign social media surrogate, he pretty much sealed my fate as unofficial campaign tech support.

There’s a Story sitting in Grandma’s drafts—just a still-frame shot of Boomer wearing a custom Jordan Rossum bandanna, with a caption about tonight’s event. “Are you trying to attach the event page or the donation link?”

“Ooh.” Grandma leans forward. “The event page, but then let’s do another one with the donation link.” She sits up straight, cocking her finger at me. “I like the way you think.”

I figure out the link stuff pretty easily, and hand it back to her. “This is one hundred percent the real reason you made me breakfast, isn’t it?”

“Not a hundred percent,” she says. “Fifty percent? Sure.

Seventy-five percent? Probably.” I shake my head, smiling.

“You’ll see,” Grandma says. “When you’re my age on Instagram—”

“I don’t even have Instagram now.”

“I didn’t either when I was your age,” she says, shrugging.

 

Naturally, I beat Drew and Felipe to the track, so I hang back near the bleachers, trying to look like I belong there. It’s so strange being at school in the middle of the summer. I know some of the sports teams practice here all year round, but that’s never been my scene. Nothing about this is my scene. There’s a group of cheerleaders warming up on the football field, and at least a dozen runners circling the track at all different speeds. I sneak a glance at them, trying to guess which one’s Beth. I don’t recognize a single person here. Which probably tells you everything you need to know about my own athleticism.

Drew and Felipe finally show up around 9:15, looking puffy-eyed and half asleep. Felipe greets me with a half-hearted fist bump, but Drew scans the track and turns back to us, crestfallen. “She’s not here.”

“Beth?”

“I can’t believe it.” Drew shakes his head. Felipe yawns. “Maybe she’s running late.”

I snicker, which earns me curious looks from both of them. “Running late,” I say. “Get it? Because she’s a runner?”

Felipe shoots me finger guns. “Goldberg, bringing the dad jokes.”

“Uh, no.” I scoff. “That’s a grandma joke.”

“I don’t know if that’s something to brag about.”

Drew ignores us. “Their practice started at seven. How is she not here?”

I follow his gaze to the runners, a couple of whom have stopped for water near the far goalpost. I don’t blame them. It’s eighty degrees out already, maybe more. I mean, I’m breaking a sweat, and I’m barely even moving.

“I think . . . I’m going back to bed,” Felipe announces. “Oh hell no.” Drew’s blue eyes narrow. “We’ve got to

investigate. Come on.”

He takes off at a sprint, and Felipe and I shrug and jog after him. But I’m panting before we’re even fully past the bleachers, and Felipe’s an even bigger disaster. “Nope,” he says breathlessly. “We’re not doing this.”

“Literally . . . can’t . . . ,” I huff, stopping short. Felipe stops too, gripping his thighs and breathing heavily.

Drew circles back around to meet us. “Wow. You guys are terrible wingmen.”

“No, we’re terrible runners,” says Felipe. “That is a completely unrelated skill set to wingman ability. No wingman should have to wing in these conditions.”

“A true wingman must wing in all  conditions.” Drew runs a hand through his hair, making it stick up in places. “Snow, hail, hurricanes . . .”

“You’re thinking of the postal service,” I say.

Drew shoots us one last disdainful look before jetting off toward the goalpost to catch up with the track girls. I follow Felipe onto the edge of the football field, sinking crosslegged onto the grass beside him. “So.” I lean back on my hands. “Do we think Drew’s going to hold out for Beth, or end up with a different girl’s number?”

Felipe snorts. “It’s fifty-fifty.”

I uncross my legs and let myself fall backward on the grass. Closing my eyes makes it feel like we’re in some big, empty field, miles away from every other human on earth. The noise fades in my brain. No bat mitzvah speeches, no failed interviews, no tumbling produce displays.

But a sudden burst of laughter from the cheerleaders knocks me back to earth. I sit up hastily, cheeks burning.

Felipe eyes me. “You think they’re laughing at you?”

“No. I don’t know.”

“Man. Your brain.” He shakes his head. “Why would they be laughing at you? What are you doing that they could possibly be making fun of right now?”

I stare at my feet and don’t answer.

“No, seriously. Walk me through it. Why are these cheerleaders making fun of you?”

“Because.” I shrug. “I don’t know.”

Because I didn’t even finish a lap around the track before I had to lie down. Because I’m sweating. Because my shirt’s riding up. Because I’m too awkward to function.

“Because I’m this.” I gesture vaguely to my entire self.

“You are straight-up paranoid about girls, I swear.”

“I’m just . . . rightfully cautious.”

“Why? Because of what happened at the Snow Ball?” Felipe raises his eyebrows. “Dude, that was four years ago.”

“Three and a half.” And it’s not like anyone’s forgotten.

In retrospect, it was a terrible idea. I mean, eighth-grade dances  are a terrible idea in general, but asking Brianne Henke to dance was next-level terrible. And of course I have this awful, almost photographically detailed memory of the moment itself—everything from the paper snowflakes dangling over the dance floor to the tight little smiles flicking across Brianne’s friends’ faces. Brianne looked at me and said, “Hi, Jamie,” without the slightest shred of enthusiasm. Without any inflection at all, really. But I took a deep breath anyway, and forced myself to go through with it.

I asked her to slow dance. Except my mouth didn’t say slow dance. It said slowmance.

“It wasn’t even that bad.” Felipe laughs. “It was iconic.”

I roll my eyes. “Right. Iconic.”

So iconic that the concept of slowmance became a Thing. Among the jock bros, mostly. They morphed it into every part of speech too, like slowmantic and slowmantify. Once I heard someone’s mom say it. People literally petitioned for A Night of Slowmance to be our homecoming theme last year, and were pissed when the seniors overruled it.

“Listen,” Felipe says, “if that’s your most embarrassing moment—”

“It’s not.”

That would be the fifth-grade presidential reception, when I called former president Carter a penis farmer.

I grasp desperately for a subject change.

“Hey,” I blurt. “Any chance you’re up for an insanely boring campaign dinner tonight?”

Felipe grins. “Wow. That is a compelling pitch. Insanely boring—”

“Did I say insanely boring? I meant amazing. Insanely amazing and fun and . . . amazingly insanely fun.”

“No way. Nolan and I both have tonight off, so we’re watching the Christmas Prince sequel.”

I look at him. “It’s June.”

“It’s always Christmas in Aldovia.”

I mean, I get it. Felipe’s been working all summer, ringing up self-serve frozen yogurt at Menchie’s. It’s for college money. He qualifies for the HOPE Scholarship, but the thought of books and housing expenses has him scrambling to take as many hours as possible. And his boyfriend, Nolan, works a lot too, which means their hangout time this summer is vanishingly rare. I know there’s no way I’d be going to this campaign event if the alternative was spending time with my girlfriend. I guess it’s pretty lucky for Gabe that girlfriends are so far from my reality, it’s laughable.

Felipe shrugs. “Maybe Drew will be down?”

“Ehh. I’m not expecting much.” I glance back at the goalposts,  where Drew’s talking animatedly to a red-cheeked girl with a messy blond bun. “It’s for Rossum, so.”

“Ah.” Felipe nods. “Got it.”

Rossum campaign stuff is kind of a tough sell for Drew. Not because he’s conservative. But his parents are—Newton sign in the yard and everything. Drew’s already on thin ice from the time I dragged him to the campaign office and Gabe sent him off with a stack of Vote for Rossum postcards. His parents found them tucked into the side pocket of his car door, and they . . . weren’t exactly cool about it.

“I don’t even know if I should ask him,” I say.

I watch Drew smile at the girl, high-five her, and start jogging back to us.

A moment later, he plops down beside Felipe. “So. I’m an idiot.”

Felipe pats his arm. “We know.”

“No,  seriously.  Just  talked  to  Beth’s  friend  Annabel, and she says Beth works at Catch Air on Thursdays, which opens at ten, so Beth has to be there by nine, so, like, she was here, but only until eight. She left early.”

“I am literally not following this at all, even a little bit.” Felipe yawns.

“And I don’t think they’ll let you into Catch Air without a kid. So, my lads, we are firmly SOL today.”

“Catch Air . . . ,” I say slowly.

And it clicks. Catch Air. That’s why the girl from Target looked so familiar. It isn’t just that I’ve met her before. I spent half my childhood with her.

Maya Rehman. It’s been almost ten years since I’ve seen her.

But her face hasn’t changed at all. Same wavy hair, same giant eyes, and I bet she still has that dimple in her cheek when she talks. She’s always looked kind of like a less pale, darker-haired Belle from Beauty and the Beast. But personality-wise, she was a total Mulan. Super badass, completely self-assured. She would climb anything, ride anything, stand up to anyone. I swear, running around Catch Air or the park with her made me braver. I mean, yeah, she was the Disney princess and I was basically the animal sidekick, but I kind of liked that. It’s not like I ever wanted to be the prince.

I can’t believe I actually saw Maya Rehman yesterday. Like, grown-up, real-life Maya Rehman. She’s not even a month younger than me, so of course she’d be seventeen. But my brain doesn’t know what to make of the time jump. It’s like catching a glimpse of the future.

I should have talked to her.

Except—right. I was too busy exploding tangelos all over the produce section.

In front of her.

Because I’m me. And wow, do the hits keep coming.


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